Dont give up - you are doing great. The beginning is always the hardest.
I am same as you, trying to be noticed. But remember this: Before you learn how to fly - you first need to learn how to walk. Before you know how to walk - you first need to know how to crawl. And if crawling is all you can do right now, then crawl. It is better to be a couple of inch farther than stay in the same place as yesterday.
Hi @clicker.. I like your insights.. :) Its learning how to stand up after you fall.. Great.. :)