Dear Diary: I Am Thankful To God For My Two Siblings But One

I Am The One On The Left, Your Left

We are all four siblings in my family but the eldest one doesn't support me, only my brother after him that supported me right from the start and in fact his marriage was postponed because of his concern for me. He even bought me a computer before so that I can play video games with it although we are not connected to the Internet at that time.

That was in early 2000 by the way where the Internet here in my country if not slow is very expensive. Then he sold it and bought a Sony playstation for me but I could not get a suitable pirated copy of a game so I just stopped using it. That brother of mine if there were two of them I would have not been like this.

So I envied my co-patient where her brothers just supported her and made her Kidney Transplant possible. I hope that she is okay today because it was about 16 years already ever since she had her transplant as transplants doesn't live long and will somehow get back to dialysis but can get another transplant if they so wish.

Anyway my other sibling which is the youngest now gives me some financial support after she got a job as a school teacher thanks to the support of my sister-in-law that pushed her into teaching because it will just be a waste of money if she just stays at home. Now everytime she gets her salary she gives me some so I can use it for my dialysis bills. God Bless them my beloved siblings.

I have no grudge about my eldest brother though because I felt robbed them the attention that my mother should have given to them because all the while all the attention is given to me because I am the weakest and sickly plus my siblings really have no obligation to me including my parents, they are just loving and supportive especially my mother out of what she can offer.