Agreeing with the status quo can be unfavorable sometimes so good on you for countering that. On one hand you can stay with the crowd and be led to your slow demise or question it and be labelled a pariah that was able to turn some away from "benefits" of the system. Don't beat yourself up, if you are wrong about it just own up to it and everything will be normal.
I'm glad you are focusing on what moves you instead of what drags you down, especially so close before your birthday. Once you're done with your introspection you'll be back better than ever.