While yes with a title like that this is bound to look far worse that it is (not that I don't this this place has become a hellhole) but for the sake of keeping my sanity of avoiding the stare of the abyss that is depression one have to really disconnect with the most news since here they are either the kind that is pro-gov and says that there isn't anything wrong or on the other side making things far, far worse looking that they are and while on some point I understand the sentiment of trying to make people move and act from that I honestly belive that at this point it only manages to depress the mayority of the populace that at times just feel so defeated by betrayal after betrayal from both the gov and the opposition.
This is a country where you can't honestly thing to live a true normal live without some form of income in the form of dollars or some lucky connections to give you a powerful workplace. This is why I mostly try to find my luck with internet digital commissions and whily I would like to be a bit more succesful I can't say that I haven't got nothing with so far 2 jobs in the entire year. Those gave me around 210$ that I manage to use up in 4 months for myself and a bit for the family it's increadible just how important the dollar has become so the point that the price of the dollars goes up a 100% in a month and it's no longer impressive.
I honestly see the chance to take out the current goverment as a slim one. There have been so many times when we were close only to have the polititians from the very oposition give the gov not only time to rest but more power that they had before. The last time this happened was when after months of protests and hundres of deaths and many more imprisioned and injured all to stop the creation of a illegal assembly to overrule the current one with no real (at least not one to decided if they wanted an new assembly or not) vote made from the populace and also to impeach the president or atleast this was the objective made by the people on the street however when the polititians came they started to subtly ask for the elections of governors little by little until in the end after all the dead and tortured a pretty fishy governor's election that ended giving away more states to the goverment party. I honestly beilve that the current oposition is pretty much corrupt by goverment lackeys and those that aren't pretty much lost the good faith of the people by their imcompetence.
I have to say I not much of a blogger, heck this is the first time I have made one of this in my life, my usual interactions with the internet is either on chats or me posting pictures of my illustrations online with minimal writings from my part. But I have to say that, at least for this subtject, is cathartic to just write about it. Anyway so far my plan is to finish my studies and flee from the country probably to spain since I have friends and family there that can help me while trying my best with digital commissions.