Ayahuasca has two sides. For some people, it can easily be the worst decision of their lives. I was one of these people.
No, the Shaman or the retreat was not the problem.
I am not going to explain all the details, but it messed me up physically and mentally. My first night positive. That was dwarfed by going to hell the next night.
Some of the negative symptoms (2nd night):
- I couldn't eat or walk for the next 3 days
- I got physical with myself (bruises all over my face, black eye, and blood in my nose)
- Horrible nightmares for at least 6 months
- Horrible stomach problems (this could be anything, but I have my suspicions)
Positive takeaways (1st night):
- I loved my wife more
- Decided that I wanted a baby with the love of my life
- Respected the universe a lot more