Hey everybody,
I don't know if there are a lot of people here online but.....I can't sleep.
Was turning a lot in my bed and decided to get up and sit behind my laptop.
My husband and our 3 girls are far far awy in sleepyland. And I'm sitting here thinking to much.
Yesss I know we women think to much about everything :p
But 2 months ago I went to my gynecologist because it's been a few months that my lower abdomen is killing me!!
Especially the left part. When I have those lovely monthly period (NOT) .....I can't even move because of the pain.
After the doctor took me seriously she run some testand an ultra sound. She found a tumor on my left ovary.....BAM! I couldn't hear anything else.
I froze...my husband came allong with me and he did most tof the talking.
The drive home was really silent. Normally we have loud music in the car and we sing, dance, do crazy stuff but this time it was just silent.
When I got home I went to bed and stayed the whole day in it. WHen the girls got back from school my husband said that I wasn't feeling well and they left me alone.
The next day I called my mother and told her this news....the only thing that she said was she had a long day and I just had to give her more bad news...I started to laugh cause she likes to stay in that victim part. And I hung up...
The people who are close to me I send only an app. Saying that word tumor...every time I said it it was like a smack in the face!
I really stayed for almost 3 to 4 weeks in bed. Didn't want to contact anybody. Just wanted my girls and husband around me.
A friend of mine tagged me in a video on Facebook where a young woman survived a tumor in her body. She also said that what ever happends to you never give up!
I started reading again and I have still no clue what kind of tumor it is in my body but I am not going to give up that easily!
And yes sometimes it sucks...because of the pain. Then it pulls me down again. But when I look at my girls faces...I put them in this World. It's my job to give them the best that life has to offer....they are my Why...they are my everything!
And for as long as I'm still here on this earth I will do anything and everything for them and just make the best out of every day!!!
Yes it's sometimes difficult and sometimes all the hope that I have gets sucked away....but I will live this life just once. And I will sure make the best out of it!
Thank you for reading.....I just had to write it all a bit away....will go back to bed. Hopefully I can sleep for a bit.
Goodnight <3 
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Sorry to read this. Lately I've heard many people say that tumors don't have to mean anything and that human body is capable of healing itself once it's naturally cleansed and detoxed (through fruitarian diet and juicing).
Wishing you all the best!
@alcibiades thank you for your kind words. A friend of mine introduced me to a total plant diet. So only fruits and veggies. It's sometimes still a bit difficult but I am not giving up!
I have a lot of faith in this :)