moans good racer

in #life9 years ago

“There are thousands of people like me.  I saw them every time I went to  the racetrack.  Miserable motherfuckers, all of them.  Always looking  for the next big score that never comes.  Always nervous and depressed.   It’s a very bad addiction.  I never drank.  I never did any drugs.  But  I couldn’t stop gambling.  I bet on thousands of horses in my life.   The more you win, the more you bet, until you lose it all again.  It was  the same routine everyday.  I spent every morning looking for enough  money to get on the subway and get to the racetrack.  I did menial jobs.   I sold things on the streets: shirts, belts, t-shirts, sweaters.  For  fifty years I did this.  A lot of times I didn’t have a place to live.   At least I never committed any crimes.  I know a lot of guys who did.   It’s a real fucking curse.”