Those who took them and are alive, have no words to utter. I just yesterday spoke to a distant friend of mine, whom I told that I lost my job, through being fired to not have me - not once - been tested and not wearing a mask, I lost two friends (no contact whatsoever) and that I payed my price and never will return to the work and institutions who led me down. That I was right about the lies and all others were wrong who believed in the betrayals. She listened and responded nothing.
I am not desperate, only more real. More things are to come.
We were just on the brink to a nuclear war the last weekend, since the British government almost got permission to use long range missiles to attack Russian territory. We were saved by some sane voice within the apparatus who told the involved that the Russian don't bluff.
It's hard to live with all the knowledge and still enjoy life. But weirdly enough, I often enough do.
Sometimes I seem to enjoy surviving the more when I face death and destruction.
Thanks!