Hello Mav. It is good you let out a bit of emotion through this medium. Find the strength to let everything out. You are a strong person from the little I know about you, don't allow the world and its problem to defeat you. Be strong and think about those people that care about you. Let their thoughts give you reasons to continue living.
I hope to be strong. For a long time I faked being strong and now don't know what to do.
I had hoped that the world would be a better place but reality often is harder than what we envision it to be.