I do consider myself very lucky, with my mom with schizophrenia growing up she helped me to feel what that could be like. Although I cannot imagine your exact situation. I was able to be in touch with some extreme emotion and paranoia and survive it. I feel lucky to not have been put on medication. Basically I feel like a junkie without an addiction knowing if I had a serious addiction it would likely destroy me. Luckily yes the ground where I am in this Country is allot safer. It's more like seeing weak decadence of consumerism. Many useless buildings are build for bogus products. Knowing the history tells you they committed genocide, ecocide, and cultural genocide in order to 'build' this 'country'. I should be lucky to freak out now, with such intense of emotion it may seem a freak show, I can feel it. I like that how my mom told me their were people out to kill us, brainwash our family...it wasn't real but real enough...still based in reality. But yes people are captured by the language and thought of the culture and may not know how to question it, they would have to feel uncomfortable first. How can we taint the culture with distaste to let people know they can riot for a better or different way. Yes most people are stubborn and say they hate change. It's a toughie. Still the only way to be positive is to stay on the sunny side of morbid!! It's nice to lash back at a apocalyptic/defeatist culture with a good measure of positive uplift!! Yet it could only be a tangible hope that could prevail, people would need a good reason to cheer up or they won't.
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