It felt a little bit heavier thinking about the way to get some extra money on my hands for now. A lot of people give suggestions and I believe that I have been trying their ideas one by one at my own speed. It always makes me feel weak and useless when it comes to financial management.
Yet, I still believe that if I keep on training my discipline, I will be able to get out of this money trouble in a few more years. I tried to look alright but then my daughter made me feel sad whenever it comes to things that I cannot afford to buy her including food. Previously a plate of meals can be bought for MYR10 below but now, it is quite difficult to have a plate for two which is lesser than MYR20.
When it comes to buying groceries, MYR50 can get a 5kg rice pack, and a tray of eggs. At the cheapest store I can find, I will be able to buy one plastic cooking oil too, and a cabbage. This will last for at least two weeks. This is more than enough for the two of us but then things like not enough nutrients come out from a doctor's mouth.
It is just a way to let go of the heaviness inside but overall, I am alright because the common response to things like this will be...
"There are others who got worse fate than me."
A better life will come soon and I will not wait for it to come. I will march forward to that day.