Isn't it so hard to be honest and act like your true self when every single post and comment has money on the line?
Overall I am positive about Steemit. But there are certainly times when I "snap out of it" and it just feels like a job, posting every day to try and earn money. In that mindset, the inconsistency of payouts can be really frustrating.
Kudos to you for finding a good happy place to Steem from!