No problem... Hopefully the "inspirations" manifest into actions or thought processes. Most of what I say to others I've often thought about or reflected in myself as well.
That is the beautiful thing about God isn't it? He has long forgave us for all our "sins" so nothing to be forgiven there, but what you choose to do moving forward is your decision. The simple fact that you stated 3 negative iterations i.e. (bad, very bad and even terrible ) is a bit alarming... Only you can determine that for you... Forget what people systematically or are pressuring you to think or believe is right, but ask yourself what your own values and beliefs are. Just do some good, better, and great decisions to counteract some of that in your own regards.
Yeah he can be a bit lost for words at times... but his true essence in my eyes is not his linguistic abilities but his character and the many things he talks about is quite innovative. I would explore a few of his content so you get a clear variety before making determinations. Also I believe he uses that word a lot because of the responses he receives of laughter, engagement, and acceptance so it reinforces him using that word a lot.
Dang I wanted to find this video about how this student writer says that she wasn't accepted for her writings and Gary Vee stood up for her and tried to get her to see that the opinions of those "gatekeepers" don't matter... sometimes we only relay messages in ways we feel to be comfortable to us or to make sure our target audience understands and listens
You are doing great though step by step is how things can systematically change and it shows you are putting a great deal of effort into this so keep up the amazing work bro.
(>'')> YOU GOT THIS!!! <(''<)