Once upon a time, I was a gross,annoying sadist. My presence was hardly felt wherever I was,it seems I was invisible, the little things I did I did them wrong. I couldn't cook,I was lazy, slow to obey, didn't like eating, a pain in the ass. I watched how everyone wanted my sister to be everywhere, my eldest sister would call and ask when she will come visiting, I was available but wasn't needed. I hardly cared about anyone, I felt everybody ought to take care of themselves, it was just about me. What saved me was my conscience, it pricked and judged me,I couldn't silence or kill it.
I admired those that were appreciated by their friends and family, I admired how my sister was wanted everywhere and how everyone gets excited when she is around. I wanted to be that person but I thought I was made this way, to be alone, and detested by all. I knew I had a bright future, I knew there was something in me I needed to let out to the world but I didn't know how to make a move, I was scared of trying, scared of breaking free.
All those are past tense now. Today my sister called me and asked when am coming home that her kids said I should come to their house first. My dad called and asked if I wasn't coming for Easter, my other sister called and said I should come to her house that what am I still doing in school. They missed me......this drove me to tears cause I know who I used to be and who I am today. I know the impact I have made in my family that they now see me as an angel sent to their rescue. I can't go into details but I have impacted hugely in their financial life,emotional and I have been so handy that whenever it's time to return to school, they always plead for me to extend my stay.
It didn't end with my family, I have impacted in friends and people I haven't met. It's almost impossible to know me or have me around and not improve in atleast one aspect of your life. This is still me, the old gross,silly and useless kid, I changed.
There is nothing impossible to achieve, you might not understand this tale cause it's not your feet in the shoe. You might not know how much guts it takes to swap from being a demon to an angel. You might not understand how it feels to be appreciated everyday, making you remember who you used to be,you might not understand what it's like to change from being invisible to the brightest light in the room,just understand that you can be whatever you want to be. Your goal might not have to deal with character, it might be something physical, academical or with profession,whatever it is,you can make it. Believe it,get to action and start scoring.
Thanks for reading and enjoy the rest of your day
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I like the new you.
Creative, smart and approachable.
Continue to shine sweetheart
Thanks steemit bestie
Hope to see you again soon
I can't wait to see you dear @nwamaka 💜
I know that feeling babes, I used to be there but, I like and appreciate the new @jeaniepearl too😀
Hahahahaha
Thnks sis
love u guys @adejoke16 @jeaniepearl 😘😘
Love you too darl💜
Awwnn
I know this feeling...
Have i gotten out? Am i still in it?
Am happy for you bae, you're the girl everyone wants. My creativity witch.
Hahhhhaha
Thanks sugar
Getting better by the day
This is who i used to be few years ago, i wasn't useful to anyone, i was just there. I am glad i have improved and i am still struggling to be more
Cheers to a better us
Hello! I find your post valuable for the wafrica community! Thanks for the great post! @wafrica is now following you! ALWAYs follow @wafrica and use the wafrica tag!
I'm happy for you....
You deserve the best in life
Go girl!!
Awww
Thanks dear
May the best things be yours
I am almost moved to tears. More like the stone that was abandoned has become the chief corner stone. Am so glad i found you with the new you, keep touching lives, you will be amazed how happy you will be. Wonderful irony about life
Lol
Thanks ma
Its a pleasure
It really feels great to be appreciated. Nice post dear.
Thanks ya
Change is constant dear. But thank God u changed for good
Yeah and still doing so
Thanks
Well what's more to say,
I am a living proof of someone she affected positively.
You have always been awesome dear, you just didn't know it.
I am happy you do now!
Awwww....
Thanks sweet
Yeah, you are everywhere and always very useful too!.... Don't you sometimes feel that you might not be good enough? Or you might not get something done rightly?
You are very loveable dear. Everything you said in the first paragraph kind of mirrors me. I'm not the outgoing type but I have found a way to be relevant.
Love and appreciate what you are doing for the community. Go girl!
@penauthor
Awww thanks bro
Motivated to do more
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Oooh gurlll u said it well, but guess what?ur not alone in that shoes and find ways to be the star n the night which everyone looked up. Two kinds of kid or a person it is, an introvert and extrovert, I'm happy to say I'm on the first one, and so glad that after the time being from young age to be an adult a way out to express once self is slowly shows a transformation as what u call it from intro to extro, time molds us and help us to upgrade our own for our own good also. Yo! Gurl we're out of the shell and now let's spark and light more to inspired others!!! Happy much for you @jeaniepearl I know you feel so much joy and pride inside, steem on!! Hugssssss
Big hugsss and cheers dear
Cool to see someone that can relate to this
Change is constant dear...
True