I don't think it's a good thing that you drink this heavily while being the caretaker for your child...
I think you might want to seek some help... :/
I know a drunk S.O.B. when I see one... You drink quite often, from what I've seen in your videos. There's a clear difference of you sober vs. you after having been drinking. Please, for your sake and for your family's sake... Quit drinking...