First and foremost, i think you should resist the temptation of self diagnosis. Unless, a doctor tells you, you are depressed you're not. And second, what you should do is see a psychiatrist. Then do as he says. You'll be lucky to find help here.
Going by your name, may be read a book on TA to get better at trading and dont fall in love with your positions.
Ya that's true buddy,i am going to see a psychiatrist really soon.