I am easing my way back into a routine, taking one day at a time. It's hard after what i did. It's been 17 days since that day, i never thought i would take that extra step but that day the wall that usually stops me cracked and i stepped through taking far too many tablets. If it wasn't for my sister and brother in law i wouldn't be here.
I didn't know what to expect once i was found, i was in a different space until he came into the bedroom giving me a shock to kick me back really. I cried for hours.
The paramedics gave me a charcoal drink, it was disgusting. It helps take the toxins out of your body, wasnt nice going in nor was it nice coming out.
17 days after
I have definitely took a step upwards, the dark thoughts are still there but now there is a lot more light in my thoughts. A lot more light in my life. I have good and bad day thankfully not as bad as i did. I am constantly watched and never left alone for to long as that's when my mind over thinks. My medication has been reduced to weekly prescriptions and they have to be kept away from me with a member of the family administering them.
Today has been a hard day with having problems with my Doctors. There was a massive mix up with the receptionist mixing me up with another patient putting them in for my appointment. Tonight i got a phone call from my Dr apologising and making sure i was OK. I am seeing him tomorrow to get my medication sorted. My depression tablets need upping or changing plus my menopause tablets are now out of stock so they need changing.
I have a few questions i need to ask so hopefully when i get home after the appointment my mind will be a lot clearer, hubby is coming with me as he has a few questions.
I keep telling myself tomorrow is a new day and it just might be my day.
Thank you @son-of-satire
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Thank you, (((HUGS)) back atcha :)
As one who has followed your stories for a long while...I still don't know how to absorb your current reality...your sharings always had so much energy with the way you lived life everyday....your plantings were amazing and you seemed to attack each day with an incredible gusto inner reserve...You showed amazing strength with all your husband's recent health issues....It is such a mystery how we can have such extreme ways of handling life at times and I hope this cry of desperation is able to tap into that inner courage you do have to blanket yourself with the love and will you deserve. Its time to give to yourself all you seem to give to others....
Thank you that was heart warming to read. I have had depression for a very long time never teaching that horrible low point, things have been building up for a long time then i hit my wall. Couldn't take anymore, thankfully i am on the mend and hopefully will be back with more garden stories, i haven't been in my garden for over 2 weeks, haven't had the will or energy. Dread what i will find when i eventually make that step.
Even flowers wilt and then come back more beautiful than ever...sending you thanksgiving blessings from USA.
Thank you that was lovely of you :)
Amiga tenga paciencia y calma,no piense tanto las cosas,trate de dormir ,tome tambien agua de la hoja de lechuga ,hirviendo una taza de agua y colocando dos hojas de lechuga y lo apaga,coloca una pizca de azucar
Gracias. Nunca he oído hablar de eso antes, lo intentaré, intentaré cualquier cosa en este momento
Sending you hugs and lots of flowers, my sweet friend. 💐🌸🌹💐🌸🌹🤗🤗🤗
Thank you, ❤❤