Oh my dear Jaynie... my deepest condolences...
I was just thinking that it is a long time I saw no post from you, and I checked your profile to find out about your loss..
It is not easy, it will take time.. It may help you to talk about it or you may need to mourn alone. Whatever the case, try to remember your little one who should see you strong - because I am sure it is difficult for him too.
My thoughts are with you
Stay strong
xx