More proper response now:
Yes - you do remember me correctly. I came back with my tail between my legs a bit. I had kept trying to get back on the platform, but there was just a lot of life going on--broken laptop, travels, moving, health things.. and then I ended up recording and releasing my album!. BUT I am insistent on saying that I came back before any of the crazy happened in crypto land--just a few days before, in fact. I cashed a fair chunk of SBD at $2.60 because I needed a little money, juuuust before it skyrocketed :). lol
We should write more "from the guts"--it's true. Doesn't mean you can't edit after and decide what parts you may want to leave out, but it's important to just get it out, I think, without too much worry about perfection at that stage. Seems to be where the magic happens.
I feel the same way about my sister and brother who are still here! It would be like losing all of me, I think. But somehow, no matter what hits us, the human person is capable of withstanding incredible losses; you know from experience.
I actually try to avoid the theological debates proper on here, not because it isn't a worthy discussion, or I feel I don't have a good response, or because I don't really believe but just because.. it's the wrong place to talk about something so deep and nuanced! But.. I can definitely say that if heaven is just a bunch of gaudy buildings, then of course it's silly :). I've always understood that as standing more for a description of beauty beyond comprehension and even more importantly, the perfect fulfillment of every desire, and the language is just a symbolic representation. And I am ABSOLUTELY WITH YOU about the NO BUGS. Like I can't even tell you haha. They ruin the most perfect days! lol
Anyway, all I really meant to offer was just that I really understand the extra suffering of those who are not believers--at the point of pain, the debate doesn't feel like it matters a whole lot, as the belief itself (whether or not it's true!) just brings a lot of peace. It hurts me to know the extra pain it leaves with people, and in those moments I feel very grateful for my faith. In some ways, I also just really admire those with no belief or a less clear belief because it would take a lot of strength to process grief without that consolation. I'm grateful you shared as you did, frankly and candidly. Very human, and beautiful. It's good for us to share like that, and to read it. Edifying: thank you!
Now I am back full force on the platform! And not just because of the exchange :) (although it certainly helps.. I am always struggling to make the pieces fit as an artist, so this little stretch of abundance has been like a river in a desert.. I don't feel entitled, but just very grateful for what's been given.)
Thanks for your thoughtful response, friend. xx, Kay