Come on! How can you find these words to explain such an awful alienation?!
I do not read much Rumi, but Rumi must be everywhere because of the essence of the universe that was hummed by him. I also found him in your words. He and you I think not a strange or alienated from the modern world today, but precisely what is most needed. You feel in everything that is old, precisely because you really, like Rumi, is someone who is being sought.
Amazing.