Thanks Chris! You're right! I think I could have said all of this more concisely like you just did! "We truly are what we think we are".... it's like Self-Actualization.
I just realized in that moment that there is so much more to life. Why let all this shit get to me? I had worked hard and gotten lucky before. Why can't it happen again? There exist sweet spot cross-sections where talent and opportunity cross paths...you just have to be paying attention to see them :)