Of course everything is hypothetical your approach.
I recommend that you stay better, do not even think about it, just thinking is anguish for your loved ones. You will miss your wife and your daughter, I know what it is not to have a father by your side so I try my best to be a father 24 X 24 x 360 days and hours.
So by the way you see life I know you're an excellent father.
But I'm also honest, I literally think that many of us have these questions.
Everyone should think about their place in this world in my opinion and a large part of the problems we face is because we don't. Instead we act on our desires for things we might not even want.