Thank you.
I think I do very much face my issues head on and have had long periods of sobriety.
For me the current issue is my PTSD. I have constant flash backs of abuse and panic attacks and I think that is what has lead me to the drink. So, I guess it is not wanting to face that stuff. It is really fucking hard to face....
Thank you, I am glad my work has touched you. I can at least touch a few people before taking my self out with recklessness.
In all seriousness, I am definitely worried about myself right now. With the near successful attempt on my life recently and now this...
I am just clearly not doing it right. ( ._.) (If "doing" is to mean "living")
I went to a boarding school where this fat little 15 year old (me) was told he had to participate in a 40 mile snowshoe race. I am going to tell you what I told myself and have kept in my head since.
I can't picture what 40 miles completed looks like. The concept of it is too large, it's too much to think I can do it when I have never done anything like it before. What I can do though, is take one step. Then I can take one more...
I cant reply on your actual comment @clevercross but thanks for the reminder to take the timeless advice of one step at a time. :)