Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I had three major depression episodes in my life.
It was so bad last year that I lost all hope and could not move. What I did was to get help,talk to someone, share your pain and hopefully people will understand and help you out.
Have a hobby where you can channel that energy. To me it was writing. I wrote all my demons and although some still remain, a lot have been exorcised.
Know that you are not alone and if you need hope come to me and I will try to share your pain and say we will be alright.
Honestly all are true when we exprienced it first hand. So glad to have opportunities of sharing our thoughts to one another! And yes you’re right, we are never alone :)