I really hope you start to understand yourself a bit more
you seem to want to live a simple life,
but I get the feeling you are scared to be unsatisfied
with having a little
try asking yourself some guiding questions
"if you got everything you wanted perfectly then, what would you do?"
"why do want what you want"
"what are some important values you don't want to break"
"who are you vs. who are you not?"
hopefully, you'll get a breakthrough from your inside
to help you accomplish what you really want on the outside,
keep in touch I want to see how it goes in a year
Yes, that makes sense. I guess right now what I really want is some breathing room. I just want to not have to worry about how I'm going to pay the bills and have free time during the day to ask myself all of these questions. What do I really want if I could do or have or be anything? I feel mentally overloaded. My worst fear is of being at the mercy of hostile others and not being able to help the people I care about.
Thanks for the starting points. I will use them.