I regret not having read you much earlier, @rok-sivante. You have said so many things here that have been for a long time my questions, my dreams, my fears. At last I am reading something new of yours and that makes me feel particularly special. The retreat experience you narrate is quite significant, especially if from it came not only questions, but also answers. You well know that some traumas are there latent, waiting to come out at any moment and through any crack. The fact that we can take them out, visualize them and even work on them must be enriching, important to move forward. It must be extremely painful, especially for that child inside us, carrying so much accumulated past in the bones and hands. Perhaps leaving the burdens, life will be lighter and less heavy. Nice night.
Better late than never.... haha!
(And the history’s always there to dig back into, if so compelled...)
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