Thanks Gaz!
That's how I am for the most part but I don't feel like that anymore, I was trying to keep the positive attitude but it was almost like covering up the root of the problem, which I'm still trying to figure out what it is and this might take some time but that's okay.
All these kind comments and advice are very mich appreciated. :)
I guess you have to share the stuff you can share and figure out and work on the stuff that's private.
There's clearly a big group of people of here who care about you so that's not a bad start.
If I can help with anything just give me a shout. If you need me to do a silly dance, sing a song or do some juggling for you just say the word!! 😁 What ever you need.