I'll still try to be around.
When you work on something for years and realize it's not leading anywhere, you stop. I live, I learn. I can take the skills I learned someplace else, if I was still interested in using them. I'm not. I woke up one day and wanted to be a writer and artist, so I did that. Then I woke up one day not wanting to be a writer and artist, so I did that. Put a lot of thought and time into both decisions. Stopping was just as hard as starting.
My life, is not something I talk about. There's a lot of things happening in life right now and I just bite my tongue. I don't trust people enough to be able to talk about what I'm going through. If I do, I feel like it just leads to more stress.
So that's where I'm at, and the plan is to just live through it. Tough it out. And carry on.