There's always faces in the watermelon when one enjoys it on acid, I've heard.
I knew of a few back then who didn't make it out. Once you're dirty, you can't get a job, so you're stuck. I knew I needed help and as stubborn as I can be at times, I'll still ask for help when I need it.
Stress is part of life. Even when I'm coasting along, there's still stress. I like to spit it out with words. Seems to help.