Shitty. Two t's.
I just do this because I enjoy it. Based on experience, I can say, it's always ups and downs here. I just trick myself and say it's a roller coaster and those are fun, so whatever. I'm juggling producing art, writing attempts, curating, work, life and when there's time, sleep. All self-inflicted burnout. Can't let one shitty day get in the way though. It's best to expect it. Then when something awesome happens, the reward feeling is that much greater.
Aha, two t's. That is useful. You are a true teacher of expletives.
A roller coaster - that's a good image. Kind of exhilarating, kind of nauseating. My burnout can be similarly described. Exhilarating to get one more piece of work done, and then feeling sick afterward.
Yes, let's hold out for the rewards. Or maybe in my case, that dangling carrot.