So here I am.
Did you miss me?
I missed me.
Where I've been is a long story and hard to explain. I guess the only place to start is the beginning.
Hi!
My name is @NoNamesLeftToUse The Writer/Artist Himself!
It's my first day; but I start tomorrow.
In life, I go poof. I can vanish without a trace. Nobody will call the cops to report me missing for this behavior is normal for me. They'll just assume I'm gone and might come home someday, or maybe not, who knows; and it doesn't matter, because this is me, and they know that.
Most wouldn't notice. I think when I'm officially dead and gone, whatever remains of me after the cat is done eating will just end up being that stain on the floor someone has to cover with a rug when they move in.
So, I've been gone. A complete disconnection from all things. This life is lonely. I've been inside my head for the past five months. Nowhere else but there; surviving blizzards, dust storms, some tumbleweeds, and the odd bad memory.
This is making me nervous.
Maybe I'm not ready.
I suppose it's now or never though and being invisible is only fun for the first few weeks.
There's not much for me to say. I thought I'd have more for you. I doubt I'll make excuses for being gone. Probably won't apologize except to those who thought I was dead.
Truth is: I am and always was dead. I died long ago. Now I'm stuck, here, in this little box of words and suddenly rhymes for no reason other than that's me, son.
So
This is what it's like to write.
I almost forgot.
Feels good. I missed this.
It's nice to see you again, Keys.
I have no idea why I stopped; no clue why I've been gone so long. It was only supposed to be a few days. I remember sticking around, going silent, but still voting and reading your stuff. Then I found myself far far away from an internet connection. I liked it, so I stayed there, alone.
I guess I needed a break. I think I mentioned that a few times, back in the day.
Leaving isn't easy. Being away wasn't easy. Coming back; this is hard.
For the past two months of this five month hiatus...
Wait a second here!
Who's Atus; and why am I saying hi to the guy?
Anyway... what the hell was I talking about? Incredibly lame jokes? No. That wasn't it...
Oh yeah! I remember now.
For the past two months, I thought about this place and you folks, on the daily. Sometimes those thoughts didn't leave me until it was time to enter dream land at night so I could get back to disposing of the bodies or whatever strange nightmare dream thing I'd be forced to endure while my eyes were sealed shut during the dark hours when the birds don't chirp.
All day I'd just be sitting there, awake, doing not much, wanting to be here, doing this, that, and the other thing. Eventually, that drove me nuts. So now that I'm crazy again, after a long break, feeling rejuvenatedish, this is probably where I should be, again.
Season Four
That's right.
Welcome to another addition of whatever I felt like doing that day. I don't have anything planned. I hope to be entertaining. I'll probably have some new stuff produced for you to look at. I was away for five months, one would think I'd have a mountain of entertainment ready for you to enjoy, but the truth is, I didn't lift a finger while I was gone. I'm sitting here relearning everything. Rusty. The artist in me needs a good pressure washing and some grease. Needed the break though. You know how it is.
I was scrolling through my blog here the other day, as I was making one of my first real attempts to get back into this groove. Couldn't believe my eyes. I don't know how I managed to pull off that much work in such a short period of time. I do remember a lot of 24 hour work days though. That's probably how I did it.
So
I feel good.
Well rested. Said a lot without saying anything and yeah...
It's nice to see you again.
Ave Writer/Artist himself!
This place had been getting more depressing than depression.
Don't disappear for so long again, I mean we will survive, but don't walk out on us for so many months please.
By the way, check out whaleshares.io if you haven't done so yet.
I didn't think I'd be gone that long. The time flew for me. Whaleshares? I'm already thinking I won't have the time to do this twice.
Apparently you're supposed to repost there, haven't had time to check it out myself either.
Who the fuck is this bitch?
Sir. I'd appreciate it if you could please refrain from fucking swearing on my goddamm fucking blog like that, you cunt.
P.S. Nice to see you again!
ass
dick
I mean this is some serious cuntage right here. Is this real?.
Wahahahaha!! It's very nice to see you too matey chops!!! :0D
I missed many beer posts. You still doing those? I always left feeling drunk. Miss the buzz.
I am still doing them! It's the happiest part of my week!
This weekend, @meesterboom, you shall step out of your comfort zone and purchase something imported from Canada. That is your mission. If you refuse, I will shit on your lawn as you sleep.
I will try my very best!!! I did get a Canada one when you were off! I can't remember how it was. I will however do my best this week to find a Canadian beer!!!
Hey it's the best part of the week for a many of us lol
Aw, cheers chick!!!! :0)
Finally.
You have come up in thoughts and words often.
Ping @whatsup
Can't wait for the name of this post.
Hey tarazkp. Good to see you're still around here, and going strong by the looks of things. I recently checked mentions, read some nice things, smiled. Sorry it took so long.
I have been crying myself to sleep. Glad to have you back here Nonameslefttolose
I would like to say it has all changed, but that'd be a lie :) still fun to be had.
You're crying? About the time I left, Finland beat Canada for gold medals in a junior hockey tournament... then the other day Finland beat Canada again for gold in the world tournament. Speaking to you is not easy... LOL! Joking... but damn. Quit hogging all the gold!
But more importantly... Finland didn't even make it to the finals of Eurovision.... :D
Yup, I totally thought you were dead. Just another victim of one of those Canadian ice storm blizzards(those exist right?) or bear attack, definitely one of those two. But I'm happy I was wrong :D Let me catch you up.
There you're all caught up. Welcome back! You were missed.
I survived another winter here, somehow. Those ice storms are very real but not so much here where I live. The bear attack was a metaphor. I stopped watching prices months ago. Those changes sound good but much of that was happening just before I left, or about to happen, or somehow I knew it happen..somehow. You talk more? How is that possible? When I met you that day, I thought you'd never shut up... HA! Just joking. It's good to see you again man.
ha, who are you? good to see ya
I'm just that stranger everyone seems to recognize, I guess. Good to see you, too!
Yay! So excited to see you! I’ve been thinking of you.. but not in the weird and exciting ways that @tarazkp probably has been.. but thinking of you all the same.
btw.. this is the blogger formally known as llfarms.. I just am looking for a symbol to represent that.
❤️🙌🏼 really glad to see you
It's nice to see you too, eh. Been awhile, eh. I thought about a lot folks while I was away, and you were on that list, eh. Maybe if get a few free moments later, I'll whip up a symbol for you, eh. No promises though, eh. Busy guy today, eh. I think I like this name better, eh. Has a nice ring to it, eh. I totally speak that language, eh.
Nonsense. LLcoolFarms changed her name to Justine Eh just to celebrate your Canadian-ness in the hope to coax you back. People thought it crazy but - here you are.
This is very true... and as usual, I was right 😊
Well look who's back, I was wondering where you went some time ago, can't remember when exactly probably a bit after you were gone.
Didn't even sell your votes to bid bots while you were away? What kind of monster are you?!
Hello Acidyo, good to see you again. Didn't sell votes, no. I wasn't around to be able to monitor...anything. I just put it all down, walked away for a bit. No clue what to expect now. Was hoping things got a bit better around here. I have time now so I guess I'll wait and see.
Did the downvote pool post bring you back? Cause many are hoping it will fix this system, myself included.
Good to have you back, though!
I've read the headlines but I've yet to take the plunge to see what's up. I'm so far out of the loop these days it might be best I just shy away from everything platform related, go with the flow, focus on my thing, see where it takes me. I basically showed up to class today without finishing my homework. It feels really good to be back though. Putting it off another month or two would have meant it's permanent.
2 outta 3 ain't bad :D
The painful part now, after you said that, is trying to figure out which is the 1 outta 3.
Good to see you!
No need to be in pain any longer, my poor joke was just that - your tags are all correct :)
Welcome back!
He's Back:)
Yuppers, and I thought this would be the best way to be upfront about being back. <----- see what I did there?
Haha!! Awesome man...Nice to have you back @nonameslefttouse! Yes It's good to take breaks every now and then:)
It all makes sense now, your picture, the timing of your return, the ice dragon you had parked in your back yard for a while... you were the Night King!
I can't believe you figured me out. That was me all along and if it wasn't for those DAMN KIDS!.... I would have got away with it. Wait... Is this Scooby Doo or Steemit?
Missed you. Even worried a bit about you. Glad you’re back. Take your time to get settled again. There’s a lot of discussion going on which is (part of) why I’m on a ‘sort of’ break myself. Take care <3
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Yeah I'll have to figure out a way to get acclimated all over again. The ass groove in this chair needs more ass to feel right again and the discussions might have to wait because it all sounds like a language I don't speak.
Hey! Thanks for the concern, but don't worry about me. If I'm gone, it's because I'm not here, and nothing else. Just needed a good, long, mental break and some recalibration.
I don't feel so bad about my three month hiatus now. Funny we came back at the same time. Now we can guilt shame each other into writing more.
It might be "The Age of Content", but damn... With an infinite amount of monkeys writing on an infinite amount of typewriters, I'm sure it's okay if a few step out for a cig and drink the coffee. It's healthy.
Hey kid!!
May I baptize this post with a very outlandish and crappy title before five months? @nonameslefttouse?
May I? Can I?
Glad to see you wandering over here again mate. Perhaps now I can tease you and piss you off more often from time to time. ;p
If your mind can come up with a title, I say do it. I'm not saying I'll change the title, but at least you'll be able to say you actually accomplished something with your life today and people will have a reason to be proud of you, for once. Ha! I'm just sitting here being a pompous prick for entertainment purposes. Nice to see you again!
Oh! no doubt my mind can come up with an irresistible & very cute title for your memorable post my friend. And you know it. Especially if I can count with until five brand new months to do it. :)
I have the hunch that the intense irresistibility of my original title plus a ten buck$ bet over the table will make you change your mind in a blink. ;p
Hahaha yeah. You indeed aren't wrong on that appreciation. (I suspect you've been snooping & reading the last two posts on my blog) But so that people can feel proud of me for once... I'm afraid they will have to hurry up. Because lately, I'm already walking on the tightrope in the vicinity to kick the bucket. };)
That's the spirit and never change mate. Nice to see you again too!!
Cheers!! :)
Welcome back. You were missed. You popped into my head many times during your disappearance.
You all were missed as well. I'm happy to see you're still here, doing your thing. Always enjoyed our encounters.
Dinner is in the oven. It may be a little mouldy :-)
Welcome home
Is that what smells so good, with a hint of jungle and maybe some mist? I could smell it all the way from the corner of my mind where I keep the beer cold.
It's nice to see you again.
Great to see you back! Many have asked and I recall even seeing a post or two wondering about your whereabouts! Looking forward to your creations while you were gone!
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Feels good to be back. Thanks for making me feel welcome.
Good to see you back.
Hey! Nice to see you, too!
Welcome back...didn't notice you were gone. But let me tell you about all that you've missed on Steemit that I know about.
ummm...
That is all.
Geez this is a bit of a wasted comment. Sorry if you made it this far.
I can't believe I spent all day reading this comment. I'll never be able to get that time back. I'll probably need counselling and maybe some pills because of this. Thanks for not noticing I was gone. That makes leaving so much easier.
Leaving again so soon?
Maybe I'll just write up an I'm Back post every few weeks instead of actually doing something.
Welcome back to the wonderworld of Steemit. Good to see you writing again. And doing your visuo-creative thing. Cheers on hopefully much more to come. It's not quite the same here, but still a dag gum lot of fun.
I'm not really sure where I'm going with this, this time around. Getting back into writing means I have to get back into thinking. Not sure if my brain still has that ability. Lettuce and monstrosities? See! That doesn't even make sense... unless you're a rabbit, or something.
I've known some pretty good bun-rabbit wordsmith's in my time. So you're in good company. And do what I do, don't think, just type. SOMETHING usually comes out of the pecking board...
As abstract as ever I see, and yes.. we thought you were gone for good.. but wait.. he's not powering down.. all that STEEM there doing nothing... , I guess he is coming back after all.
So yes.. welcome back.. it gets easier every day.
I take breaks, always have. While on break, it's not much of a break if I'm here explaining why I'm gone, so it's best to just leave, get it over with, all that. I cared about the place before, wasn't bullshitting when I said it, and still care. I guess we'll see how it goes now. If it doesn't work, it doesn't work.
And just about when bulls start picking up?
Interesting.
I haven't been paying attention to the markets. Came back to work on my blog, maybe entertain some folks. That's all I really care about.
I am glad you're back!
Hi Giantbear! How goes life?
Just like that, he’s back!
I saw your most recent message... and YUP, here I am. Not sure why I came back while the weather gets better... but whatever!
We all need to spend sime time alone, i actually "envy" you for being able to just leave :D
Some fights are won by walking away.
Amen to that
Welcome back. Our paths have never crossed before, so I did not notice you were gone and whatnot, sorry.
Your writing and your username remind me the faceless guy and Arya Stark of GoT. I don't know why tho. Am weird.
Anyways, welcome back!
Hi thekitchenfairy, nice to meet you. Feel free to browse my blog. If I remember correctly, I left a few hundred hours worth of entertainment here for folks to enjoy. You'll feel pretty normal afterwards.
Welcome back!
Thanks! Nice to see you again!
I discovered your post by accident and I am glad I did - I am intrigued - like the weird and wonderful. Will follow .
Hi! Nice to meet you and thanks for following along. Feel free to browse through my older work to help get a better idea of what's truly going on here.
I didn't know they made a 1970's channel. I need a pair of those shades.
He's alive!!! :)
https://busy.org/@whatsup/where-did-nonameslefttouse-go
I missed you.
About as alive as I can possibly be these days. Nice to see you again, and thank you for giving a shit... LOL
WB, you're not the only one who had to take a break. Bear market was brutal, things were not going well for Steem 5months ago, but here we are today and things are looking better. Who knows what will happen in next 5 months, I know one damn thing for sure, I'll be right here on Steem watching closely.
Even if this place was booming 5 months ago, I still needed to get away. I listen to that voice when it says 'hurry up and slow down'. I highly doubt there will be a need to run from this place forever. I came here with nothing. That's not money in the wallet... more like a high score. When I think of it all like that, it's easier to focus on my craft, do what I do, and offer this place my version of what most seem to want to see. Actual content.
Welcome back.
A good break is nice to get away. Now you can bring all kinds of new ideas into steem, from "beyond the bubble"
I'll have to see. My ideas might be staying inside my own bubble this time around. I lost focus trying to care about this place AND work on my own stage here in this space. It's hard to do both. This place needs content, I can do content and do it well. I don't think this place needs my opinion.
Yeah man not everybody has to be a steem commentator, I think you'll be cool just posting any kind of interesting content.
tldr
They better dance like that at my funeral.
very wonderful to see you back!
missed your posts.
You're all really doing a fine job of making me feel like I did something right while I was here. Thanks!
He's back! Yay and all that!
Sup ocrdu. Back like a vertebrae.
It's vertebrae all the way down. Turtles are overrated.
Unless it's like a ninja turtle.. or something.
Wonder no more...I missed your weirdness!!
I missed being weird here. Not much fun keeping it all bottled up in brain land. It's good to see you!
Holy Shizit!!!! He has risen...again! Damn glad to see ya man! Was just thinking about you, like I could feel your consciousness on the steemit breeze lol ;)
You're welcome! ;-)
It was getting to that point where it's now or never, which basically means I got bored of all the other shit I was doing. I think I'm always on break, from something. I'll do this for a bit, see where it goes.
I feel like there's a t-shirt in there somewhere... "Life is just a series of breaks from life" or something haha! Whatever the reason I'm glad of it :)
I'd wear that shirt.
Welcome back, man. Always a pleasure reading your posts.
Me likey!
Hi Pangoli. Good to see you again and thanks for the motivation.
Welcome back nonames! We’ve missed you around here!
Missed me like they missed today's post? Ha! Just attempting to crush my sorrows with flippant humor. Nice to see you again and I'm really happy to see you're still kicking ass out there.
Thanks friend 😘
Yay! You are back. I managed to stumble across you again. You can't escape.
Nice to see you back. :)
Good to be back. The show's still on the air, Season Four. No plans of pulling plug forever.
Congratulations @nonameslefttouse!
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Welcome back to Shitsvill sir! May I take your umbrella?
Thanks, talking cat. Since when do those with the umbrella fetish ask first?
Since they went a bit crazy. It's been a long winter. The laughter died many moons ago.
Why did you downvote yourself?
It felt good.
So does a shart, but it leaves a nasty mess behind. Feel free to clean it up. Don't make me use my SP on your pouting ass for the good of humanity, because I will, you know.
So glad you returned before I leave. Glad you feel rested, and looking forward to voting your talent before my vote goes back to nothing again. :)
Ooops. I missed your message. Sorry about that.
Are you leaving us? What's up?
Yeah, I am only here until my power down is complete. Just not feeling the games played from the top nor the direction that is being taken.
Overall it has been a positive for me, but it is time to move on.