I have had suicidal ideations since I was a child. My depression is two fold: a chemical imbalance and , seeing as how I'm an artist and musician, I'm super sensitive. I tend to take things personally too often. Anyway, I like what you have to say. Talking about how you feel about your problems takes the edge off them, and can put things in perspective. However, when I feel mad, sad or lonely, I can't remember feeling well, and when I feel well I can't remember feeing bad. Very strange. When you are in a dark hole and feeling helpless, it's best to have an exit strategy in place so you don't have to figure anything out it that state of mind. Have a list of people to call, get exercise that you have worked out in advance etc. etc. Once, in a group therapy meeting, someone pointed out I was using suicidal thoughts as an escape. It was a way for me to check out from reality. The thoughts were a very unhealthy coping mechanism. Anyway, emotions are temporary, and even the worst days or best days will pass. Thanks for the post!
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wooow. That's quite a powerful testimony there. I am happy that you managed to get over the thoughts. My girlfriend was also suffering from such thoughts and they sometimes pushed her to the extremes because of what she faced in life. Am doing my best to help her to put them away and never entertain such thoughts. Following you