it is indeed a journey. the coffee morning is a good start. I use to enjoy sitting on committees, that might be something you could consider if its up your alley.
I can assure you that you are not 'worthless and purpose-less' but I know that feeling when it comes to being valued. Your kids are grown, you can get your self back to it slowly. I dont think I can wait that long 😂 😂 Damn girl you did well