A PAIN DEEPER THAN A CUT.

in #life7 years ago (edited)

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What is pain? What pain hurts more than a cut? A false accusation against a guiltless individual rends a searing pain into the soul.

In 2009, while in school, I experienced this horrible feeling. It was one of the worst pain in my life. My best friend falsely accused me of her stealing her $2(#500). Aarrgh! Within, my worst horror, I could not believe the scenario. It was like African magic but happening in real time.

I stayed with my coursemate, in a three-story building, having about one-hundred rooms, all self-contained. On this particular day, my coursemate brought her girlfriends to the room. Seven of us were there. According to my friend, she dropped $2(#500) on the table. She said that she couldn't find it. Well yes, I went close to the table, but not to collect her money. She knew my values and integrity but decided to blame and accuse me in front of the others.

Her friends sided with her and they called me all sort of names. She made sure the whole hostel knew about it for some reason. I don't know why. We never had a fight or misunderstanding

Only someone in a position of trust and loyalty can betray you. An outsider can never hurt someone in that manner.

I could not bear the assigned-shame, guilt, and pain. I became overwhelmed with grief. I stepped out and got some gin. I drank with sorrow and regrets. Where I sat down drinking, there was a razor blade close to me. I picked up the razor, and I used it to cut myself several times. I wanted to feel the pain of the cut but I could not.
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(this mark is something I can never forget my whole life)
Even though I bled much, it was nothing compared to the bleeding in my heart. Everyone in the hostel was now against me.

Well, two days later while sweeping, my ex-friend swept the money out from under the bed. Oh my God! Then I called everyone in the hostel to clear my name and told them she had found the money. Ooooooh!
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After that day I had to pack my things and go home. I was then going to school from the house. In her mind, she owned me no apology because I was not making part-payment on the rent. When I packed up and left, she came to realize how much I was hurt. Only then, she asked me to forgive her. Well, I did, but I could not take her back as a friend. I realized that if her words were to save me at a point of death, she could never have even attempted to deliver me. She was who I called her a friend.

My question for us all is:

Whom do you call friends?

Do you think you know your friends?

Thanks for reading through I hope it was gainful?
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When someone you love does something bad to us, it causes so much pain. Recently, the person whom I regarded as my closest friend decided to end the friendship for reasons I couldn't even comprehend. Majority of the things she used against me were things I did in her best interest.

In truth only people whom you truly love can hurt you and it takes forever for make the pain go away.

I just pray for the strength to heal. Thanks for sharing, you never know who sharing this experience has helped.

Have a wonderful week

Am glad it was gainful to you my friend,well i think it hurts more when those who hurt you are the same you trust 100% .when a casual friend hurt you,it can easily be forgtten compare to a love.Don't worry you will be able to overcome the pain is just a matter of time.It will all become a story you will have to tell others.

Yes; friendship is about trust and loyalty. Everything else is a bonus. Sometimes, we have to go through events like your account to open our eyes. Keep the faith.

Thank you my mentor.

Hmmmmnnn. This is wise, more Wisdom to your ministry. Friends abound everywhere but true friends are scarce. My general advice is for one to reduce their expectation from people including friends too. That's the surest way not to be disappointed.

True words my friend thanks so much for reading through. I followed you.

I have followed back ASAP. Thanks.

I must say in life we learn some lessons the hard way...you must know that all that glitters are not gold so are friends some come into your life just to destroy you but we have to learn not to trust no one no matter how great they have been. Great post.

Thansk for reading through my friend.

You are welcome beauty..

Wonderful text! I totally agree with you, a pain hurts more than a cut. Thanks for sharing your experience, people sometimes are very difficult but when we are patient everything becomes easier!

Thank you my sweet girl for reading through big kisses.

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