Okay, I thought @intelliguy 's response was fricken awesome but I'm going to add my own twist to it. I'm also going to take those big bold words away from you.
When did you decide that you weren't special? In my eyes everyone is special in their own way.
You've already introspected the cause and effect of your depression. That's special. Like @intelliguy said, it's a damn rare ocassion.
What is wrong with society nowadays? Showing a teensy weensy bit of self-gratitude is met with negativity. I've heard people say to me - look at her/him, they are full of themselves!
We hear this a lot, people often shy away from it. Often, others will just try not stand out at all, like I did.
You know why it is?
It's the cultural norm to feel pretty shitty about yourself. If you're going against the grain then there will be others trying to cut you to size in no time.
You know what I say?
Fuck them. Fuck them and the horse that they rode in on.
You ARE special. You should FEEL special. Don't let others decide your speciality; you set the rules of your own speciality. Bend your own definition of special.
If your special is simply posting on Steemit and earning rewards when millions are not - then that's pretty fuckin special.
:)
Another comment that is so kind it brings tears to my eyes. Thank you. I am so grateful to the lovely people like you who take time out of their day to say such kind things.
I have thought a couple of times about editing the wording in my original post, but that wouldn't be true. What I wrote was how I felt at the time and so it should stay as it is. But then hopefully these comments also document my further thoughts on it x
Nothing is more honest than being real. You were being real there! That was awesome, even when you thought you weren't lol