Pull up the ole bootstraps and quit you're bitching !!.
I know you're not the type for a pity party. And there is nothing wrong with venting a little like you've done in this POst. Nothing at all !!
But if it's any consolation take a look at one of my other Steemian brothers @cryptopie and see if you want to stay very long in the gutter feeling sorry for yourself and you're Life. That guy is 365/ 24/7 in pain and misery. And, he is no different than you and me... with a blood pressure, heart beat, some nerve endings. neural pathways with synapses and the whole nine yards
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And I'm not trying to be a hard ass just keeping it real. Fwiw, I also almost seriously lost my Life earlier this Summer. Came real close. That's right , almost NO MORE @robertandrew around here anymore. Praise God but but that's a whole different Story.
My point is we all stare down at the Devil at least once or twice or even more in our Lifetime.
You'll get over this and be back to where you should be...Steeming
away ;)
You need it too much and we need you too much. So get you're ass back to work. I got a little more leverage now with more SP and I will give you full powered ones on my Manuel trail . I know it's not much but it's a start:)
Yeah, I know CP, we go way back around here with the charity work, for sure, and you make valid points.
I'm not here for the money, save those powered up votes for lil minnows that need em. I was never here for the money...