Thank you. I appreciate the feedback, as often question whether these are merely neurotic rants or the deeper intentions for making an impact get effectively fulfilled. Comments like this are a whole reward of their own.
True, perhaps. I've spent so many years chasing and trying to do - yet the "lucky breaks" were never really a consequence of hustle so much as easing off and realigning into the space wherein magic was possible. I think. ha ha.
There kinda has been that pressure to do something great... there's some merit to it. Though at the same time, perhaps the world would just carry on with its business without us, and there might really be so little we could do that'd make as big of a difference as we've been striving for. But yeah - we can probably easily underestimate the smaller ways our actions may make an impact and ripple out beyond what might seem big and fabulous on the surface...
Your writing really does give me a lot to think about, and it's a bonus that it's beautiful. You're definitely doing something worthwhile. I think those things ripple out, but I guess we'll never know.
I really hope it's about alignment because I've been working on that shit for ages. Of course maybe working on it defeats the purpose.
The world would surely carry on without us. I think what I'm striving for is touching someone and making their life more lovely or gentle or joyous. It's a big part of wanting to raise awesome kids. I think with my solar work, I feel like it makes a bigger difference when I help someone switch, mostly because the planetary thing feels so crazy urgent right now, but honestly we may be beyond help.