My Journey to Cambodia part1: Silence before the storm

Tomorrow i will take the airplane from Amsterdam to Cambodia.
And the reason is not for vacation, but is to buried my mother.
She died yesterday unsuspected and there for me and my sisters/brother have to go to Cambodia.

And on this moment I'm sitting with my husband thinking about the upcoming trip.
I will take the airplane from Amsterdam Schiphol, and will be in Phnom Penh after 24 hours.
This means that it will be a very heavy trip, but it's needed to succeed.

And because this is a very important trip, i had chosen to create series of post about my journey
And this will be the first one.
I called it "silence before the storm", because that's what i feel right now.

On this moment i sit quietly thinking about life and of the future, and in some way i don't want to go alone.
But because this was unsuspected and we have kids , whose go to school.
Is it only possible that i have to go alone with my sisters.

So that after 18 years i will see Cambodia again, and will visit my father grave, and i must buried my mother.
What will be the most difficult part i ever had in my life!!!

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