I post on here more when I'm either down or something bad has happened etc and I do that because I sometimes need that reassurance from people that it's going to be okay. I'm not a strong person by any means and I run my mouth and act like I am but it's more of a front for me because deep down I'm not hard, I'm not tough and that's the harsh truth about it.
The reason that I'm posting this now is more of a positive note despite the paragraph above, let me explain...
Over past few weeks, I have made so many strides to get back on track and I needed a wake up call again to keep pushing forward. And one person, in which I won't mention names as I don't want that person to feel awkward but when you read this you'll know who you are...has woke me up and it's made me see things very differently, for the better. For long while I felt I couldn't care for others, not the level I once did due to my own personal issues that had become too much for me to bare, and this one individual has brought it back in droves. The connection I have for this person has always been there for many many years but it's only now that its become much more for me and I'm so glad I told this person how I felt.
To have someone who is so down to earth and genuine who doesn't care what others think of them and can strive forward through so much bad stuff in their lives, makes me want to be that person more than ever.
Recently I had found a place to finally move to nearer to work in Newcastle in which I gave up some time back due to all the shit that had happened as many of you already know about. And it's down to, again this individual who just gave me that wake up call to say "look don't give up keep looking" and so I did.
She also made me realise that I'm worth much more than I've ever thought about myself, and that I am wanted and I am needed and this has given much such a boost in confidence it's unreal!
To sum this up, this person is amazing and although there's ups and downs we got each other's back and we care a lot on how we both are and that's only growing and it's something I'm not letting go of.
To you, you mean the world to me and I hope that when you read this, it makes you smile and realise just how amazing you really are to not only me but to yourself and others too.