It made my anxiety so bad I was going to start drinking just to handle each shift. Maybe I was being sort of weak, but my Dad said some wise words to me recently. "Your sobriety comes first over everything. If you don't stay sober, you will never have a life. If something is making you feel cravings that bad, let it go, nothing is more important than staying clean."
So, i would rather struggle financially, than have to drink to maintain stability. As soon as i touch a drink, or drug I end up losing the job regardless, losing my housing, losing family support, and just about everything.
Not everyone is going to understand the thought process, as most people are not in the same mindset, but thats okay with me.
Thanks for commenting, much love ❤
Oh I understand, and I know it is different for each one of us. Your dad is a wise man.
At this stage, it is the most important thing, to stay clean.