Disney movies taught me young that a princess was exactly what I wanted to be. How could it not?
As far back as I can remember I idolized the Disney branded Princess but yet my soul craved the strength Of Xena The Princess Warrior
The perfection, the beauty? My God the luster of dreams! To be noble and gentle enough to sing and have the animals join you but to also be gorgeous and valiant like the warrior I watched with my mother?
Well....That was my dream , my ideal of beauty. But it also seemed like an unattainable balance.
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But as a little girl I never really felt beautiful.........
I felt awkward and weird and boyish.
I was a flame of a child. Wielding bright red locks with freckled skin always just rolling around for the sake of messy adventure. I had wild curls that didn't make sense. My teeth were far from the perfection I grew up watching on television, in movies.
I felt ugly.
I was inherently jealous of any and every girl with bright blonde hair, piercing blue eyes, and more importantly a sun-kissed tan. That was my idea of beauty. How could it not be?
That was what society had imposed around me.
My sister was awkward as well. In fact growing up she was no stranger to dirt caked hands and odd haircuts. I blame the haircuts humorously on my mother tho, we learned young that scissors and vision under the influence of alcohol was just not a good idea.
Throughout school we were both teased relentlessly. The thing we were tortured for the most?
Our fiery locks and our "weird" freckles.
You would not believe the malicious comments we heard only as kids!
Many of which aren't appropriate enough for me to repeat. We were called little Devils and the kids would joke that we were actually Evil. As a little girl when you're left out of foursquare because some kids think you're bad well that just hurts. Middle school? That was even worse! I was tortured in middle school. That was when being tan was the thing. Not only was it over my hair but now it was my skin too. "casper, ghost, pasty, milk jug." I was told more than once if I would "go get a tan" I would actually be.....pretty.
As a teenager I didn't see what was so special about carrying this recessive gene, because even into high school I hardly EVER felt beautiful.
But yet so many adults told me in the future it'd be different. I'd love it.
Every girl around me was tanning their skin and they looked so beautiful! I wanted to be beautiful too! So I had my first go round with self tanner. I just knew that it would finally make me feel beautiful.
It was my first experience with fake tanner. And I went OVERBOARD. Yes, I turned orange and even worse my palms were copper.
All of the girls I admired; they laughed at me. Well that just made me try harder! My new thing, in between practicing my fake tanning skills, was laying out smothered in baby oil.
I literally soaked myself and laid out in the sun for as long as I could possibly stand it. Well I have what people refer to as porcelin skin and I got some of the worst sunburns of my life.
I am so sensitive to the sun I am borderline allergic to it, well sadly for a long time that didn't deter me in my conquest for acceptance.
So to everyone young freckled faced Ginger. Hold fast baby girl your day is coming. You are not odd, or ugly. You're hold the mysticism of the phoenix and many a men long just for the attention from a beautiful redhead.
And for me, well... I'm a princess a warrior and an adventurer. God knows every woman can be all three.
Sincerely , A Ginger
Sincerely A ginger ....
Honestly i see you way successful on this platform ...
I'm glad you liked it. Thats a super awesome compliment, seriously. Thank you!
hi! I resteemed your self esteem post, its great and will help young rustys to find peace from being bullied.
By the way , have you heard of the Mandela Effect? If you watch that movie again, the words are "magic mirror, magic mirror!" THIS IS THE MANDELA EFFECT!! it must be real!
Ha Ha I was about to comment the same thing. I aways remember Mirror Mirror on the wal. Now it has changed to Magic Mirror on the wall. Not really sure about the Mandella effect, but it is strange the we all remember Mirror mirror.
I read that its happening since we started smashing atoms together in the collider machine thing. Just shows you how fucked up it will all be in the future, there are many more examples of the mandela effect
Yes I have looked into this quite a bit but for every unexplained change the are others which do really work. The main one for me is actually the one its named after The Great Nelson Mandela. I cannot find anyone who remembers him dying in prison...
The star wars famous line "Luke im your Father!" WRONG! well fubar..
We chose to divide atoms. fractions of fractions of fractions. Much like a chef who begins with a head of lettuce and continuously divides until the metal of the blade meets the table. He no longer has anything to cut; but He doesn't stop there. So then what can we expect? A F*ing messssss.
"Mirror mirror on the wall... Who is the fairest of them all"- The Disney birthplace of low self esteem. Predictive programming is a mofro and I am very familiar with the Mandela effect.
YesbI have looked into this quite a bit but for ever unexplained change the are others which do really work. The main in for me is actually the one its named after The Great Nelson Mandela. I cannot find anyone who remembers him dying in prison...
It's from a Snow White.
Disney are proper scum if you also know of the subliminal sexual messages present in various films they made.. Some sick stuff
I most certainly do, I spent a large portion of my childhood in front of a tv.
We had sooo many disney films! Definatly part of the Agenda!
Turning us into, well im not sure what , but I lately learnt that they were programming our generation so when we grew up we would be disfuntional in familys and marrages would fail. It worked. At the time in UK when my parents divorced, 43% of uk parents had divorced!
The same in America we are at 40-50%. I was discussing this yesterday with my boyfriend. What I believe to be even more troubling:On average, nearly 20 people per minute are physically abused by an intimate partner in the United States. During one year, this equates to more than 10 million women and men. 1 in 3 women and 1 in 4 men have been victims of [some form of] physical violence by an intimate partner within their lifetime._ The generation I was born into I feel as if media branded us for hate. To feel empty in love. How could we ever find which by definition does not exist? How many damsels await in distress and how many women stay on the battlefield because they find homage? Far too many. Domestic Violence I feel is becoming an epidemic in this country. Predictive programming is what molds each generation for a higher agenda.
Yes I am familiar with thr film, but as moveingman says. We all seem to remember Mirror mirror on the wall who is the fairest of them all. But now if you read the story or watch the film its. Magic mirror on the wall...
Like Trix is for Kids?
No it just seems to have changed from the way we remember it.
Anymore examples?
I'm definitely going to double check! Thank you so much for resteeming and your kind compliment!
Welcome to Steemit! Its full of kind people 🙆
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Innovators :)
Do you use discord? I would love to connect with you and delve into your mind. takenaback#8141 If you would accompany me down the rabbit hole as well @andyjem I would be honored to connect with both of you! I hope you take my offer and we can learn from one another!! The gift of perception is in fact, the greatest gift
I did have discord but my phone is shite and hasn't got enough memory to have all the apps I need , plus discord! Is discord anonomous chat?!
Hi again. Been a bit busy. Can you tell me about discord. Not something I have heard about. 😎
Nice to meet you, wish you succeed in steemit
Thank you, I'm so excited to learn more about you!
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