But I also know I am needed elsewhere too
I think that this is what people need to work out. A lot make this a job when it should be a journey, an income when it should be an instigator of personal and social change.
I love everyone and everything but I’m not going to let any of it shit in my day anymore.
Again (always my perspectives as I can't honestly take anyone else's) I think this is a personal question and one that a lot of people suffer from. No one shits in your day, your day is yours, isn't it? The reactions we have to the conditions we face are ours to control or let control us and unfortunately, we have been incentivized for drama, to get emotional at what is pushed down our throats, instead of learning to control ourselves and choose what we eat, contemplate upon what we choose and behave with intention, rather than emotional reaction.
We are all on our own journey and while people seem to subscribe to their uniqueness, they behave on the averages, the conditioning they and near all others have received to create a mass of mediocrity through a lack of self reflection. This isn't a criticism of you or others, it is the way we have organized our world through the choice to live life by default on lessons we never chose for ourselves.
Hopefully you will create the best version of yourself, rather than accept yourself as what you are as if you can never be something else. We are all changing constantly, some intentionally, some not - for better or worse. But if we aren't even looking to improve, what are we actually doing with this life we have no choice in having? None of us chose life, but what we do once our life exists is up to us.
I wish you well on your continuing journey.
I don’t take anything that you say as an attack and appreciate your response. As far as improving, one of the main things I give my attention to. If there is one place I always fail to improve, it’s my ability to impress people with resources that I could use. I’m not a very good salesman. I’ve been working on this for a long time and still hitting a wall.
I didn't think you would take it as an attack at all, but I know that others might read it that way :)
The sales component is far easier when you don't have to sell, when the "product" sells itself. What I mean by this is that when you find your groove, it speaks for you.
Reading this at 5 am. Beautifully said.
Thanks.