For the Love of the First

in #life4 months ago

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If you asked me whether or not I would be injured last weekend, still licking my wounds today, the first day of August, I would've asked, "How?"

The current shame is the more I play any game, many games, I find myself dumbstruck, thinking to myself the very same word: how.

A short list of things I want to know how:

  • How do Maplestory players find the time and make the system to play at high levels?
  • How do Olympians, folks who face challenges constantly, persevere?
  • How do I get what I want without wanting it from others?

These questions have no answers yet, but I find new things every day. I remain optimistic. I also remain engaged in doing multiple things. I had a good prompt given to me yesterday, which I won't be able to reiterate.

The question asked doesn't really matter. I answered like I always do, after time inside, reflecting.

I don't see the space following a good movie, book, show or game as "a void". I don't think negative feelings follow the completion of those sorts of things because the positive impact left upon me is too great.

When I finished reading Silence of the Lambs, I enjoyed the movie even though it deviated from the book. Its appeal almost came from the subtle acknowledgement left in the viewer's mind based on the last scene. I also met someone very special after reading the book, but that's not why it wasn't bad when it ended.

From the impression of the work, I felt compelled. I can't say what it was, or what I did after most things and their impressions, but songs make dance, books make me write, read more and search, movies make me shop for the source material, beats make me seek out samples, shows make me save soundtracks.

So I can't explain how to "deal with the post-completion void" because it isn't one. It's a pre-creation stage, really.


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