@barrydutton, I felt a tinge of sadness when I read your blog. When we know people on a social media like steemit or FB, we create an image of the person in our mind based on how he projects himself and /or based on the posts they make. This is social media and everyone puts in their best face and the best show. The impression created is that everyone is just bustling with prosperity in abundance and joy and peace in their life is given.
But then when one bares his life and heart, the pain and suffering undergone in life becomes so glaring that it shakes up every person to the hilt. I am sorry for your pain and suffering. I know it cannot be undone. Life has to go on. But I am glad that you are strengthened by your experience to make a difference in the life of people who you come across in your life.
I have been through very painful experience since my childhood too and still at pain. But as you said, I guess we should move on in life and make it a better world out there.
Thanks for sharing Barry, it's changed my perception about you (not that I was anything critical anyway, you have been a great guy here and I took it that life must have been a bed of roses for you ).
Please do not feel let down by your brother. You have more well wishing brothers here than you could imagine. I shall pray for your well-being and peace. Be happy. God bless.