So far you have followed your heart and even though you're not happy with how your love life has turned out to be, live one day at a time.
We all have had our shares of first love fantasies but then here we are moving on and living.
Sometimes you could be filled with emptyness, shit happens like you said.
Just find that inner happiness some how, give love to the undeserving, make the hopeless happy,
Life would make sense again and you'll find love again
thanks dear.
she will see this