@rubencress, you have put words to some of the feelings that I have felt and some that I still.
It is not easy to be honest to oneself. When you get to that place where you see yourself without the tinted lens, then you have indeed began a journey to becoming something better.
I wish you the best as you continue to break open more of that chrysalis. I would love to see the sort of butterfly you will become, so do return, OK?
Oh jeez, totally forgot, lol; happy birthday bro. More of those love, peace, and those other fluffy, tingly feelings in your life. Do have a good one.
Thank you @warpedpoetic ^^, I already laugh at myself how I used to be. Taking life a little bit less serious and having more fun is the way to go. To be honest, I was a little bit afraid that I might have been too open about addressing the 'negative' part of life, but it brought me so much positivity in the end.