My kid wants to hangout with me. He keeps chasing me down. I went to the bathroom and he kept banging on the door crying, just wanting my attention. It breaks my heart when its like this. Pain ruling my life. I sucked it up as much as i could. Picked him up and gave him the "what's up buddy" pat. I had a watermelon i bought the other day that was needing cut. So we went out to the pantry and grabbed it :). Hes been pretty interested to know what it was, last few days. We rinsed and sliced. We bagged em and he ate his first watermelon. Happiest kid i ever saw. Just brings me to tears that i cant be like that more often. That i have such a hard time being myself with this fucking pain. Back in my solitude trying to get through the pain intensity.
When your child is happy - we, parents, are also happy. In my life there were many hard moments, but when I saw the joy of my children, it became easier for me.
So true @maxdani :). Ty kindly