I suffered too, so I know how bizarre this will sound to you, but I'll say it anyway because it wasn't till I took this step that I got better:
Stop taking the painkillers. And trust me, I know how badly it hurts :(. And trust me, I know they make it feel better if only for a short time, I know you need the relief.
But I know what happened to me once I stopped. I came back to life.
Walking stick and a leg brace with loads of pain killers unfortunately
I suffered too, so I know how bizarre this will sound to you, but I'll say it anyway because it wasn't till I took this step that I got better:
Stop taking the painkillers. And trust me, I know how badly it hurts :(. And trust me, I know they make it feel better if only for a short time, I know you need the relief.
But I know what happened to me once I stopped. I came back to life.
I am tempted but scared to stop as can't handle the pain