I prefer to think that this is the real you. This was always the real you. You did what most people who are young do. You went a bit crazy not thinking of the future, just living in the moment.
I was not too dissimilar ;-)
I've watched and read your previous posts about how you left your old self behind, and i think the cause of that transformation is a lot closer to you.
The love of a good woman can do wonders for a man. I know the effect it has had on me, and how it has changed me.
For those of us following your blog it is a real treat to see you as you really are, to watch your family grow and to share in that wonderful life you are building for them, and yourself.
The silent partner in all of this, rarely seen, but always present is @mama-pepper.
I think she is your savior ;-)
[note: I mean no disrespect to your faith or religion. ]