Beautiful and heartfelt <3 and completely infuriating! What a piece of trash. I'm so sorry he got under your skin. He's one of those. So insecure with himself that he has to continuously knock other people down to feel bigger or better. Because if you tell someone youre better than them, they tend to believe it (even if they act like they don't). He sounds just like my ex. He had a fuckin goddess but he knew he couldnt handle it. So he made you think you were average and he was god so you would spend forever wishing for his approval. Manipulative genius, but evil af nonetheless and I know personally how hard it is to let someone like that go. Because you will always wonder why you werent good enough... But the truth is he wasnt good enough for you and he never will be. It took falling in love with someone else for me to get over my ex and be able to see all the deceit and manipulation tactics he used on me, he called me fat once, i spent months checking a scale 6 times a day, wishing I was smaller even when my bones were showing.... Dont let him do that to you. he'll disapear from your mind eventually. And when he does pop back in your head, you'll laugh at how pathetic he really was.
I literally just started balling my eyes out about him again. I hate thinking that I need someone else to make me feel better, but it's just one of those things. I feel so annoyed at how broken he made me feel, and I feel like his new girlfriend is trying to show him off it hurts so bad but I'm just trying to ignore it. Thank you so so so much <3 I feel so related to your song addicted and coma like literally how I feel with him.
I'm so sorry you're heartbroken :( Don't let him have the satisfaction of ruining you. Let your freedom empower you into becoming the best, most successful you possible. And one day he'll look back and know he fucked up and you'll already be way passed him, laughing at his pathetic attempts to find love in all the wrong ways, and pitying every girl he manages to destroy along the way. (: I'm glad you can relate to my songs that means everything <3